I am not typing either Haley's or my lisp out in this, but they are still there.
Part 40.
As I looked down at Haley, who remained kneeling and unmoving, thoughts raced in my head. I thought of our time together over the past months, replaying moments in my head. Some of the things that both Haley and Britt had said during that time made more sense to me now. And like Britt had said earlier, this had been in front of me to see the entire time, I had just been too dense to see it. As I looked at Haley, I realized how much courage it must have taken for her to tell me about her secret. For her to do what she was doing now. And to ask me to be a part of it. I also couldn't ignore how vulnerable she was making herself. She had completely laid herself bare to me. But, underlying this vulnerability was strength and confidence. And to think I had always considered myself the complicated one in our relationship.
Haley continued to bow in front of me. I knew it couldn't be comfortable, yet here she was continuing to do it. I told her "stand up baby." She stood in place, head still bowed, responding "yes, sir". I said "of course I accept your gift. I have never received a gift that means so much. Not this actual piece of metal. But what it represents. You, your heart, your love. I promise you I WILL take the greatest of care with them. Please, look at me." She obeyed, raising her head and answering "yes, sir."
I continued "Haley, I love you. I love you more than I thought it was possible to love anything or anyone. So of course I accept this gift. But, under a few conditions. Please, come and sit beside me." Haley said again only "yes, sir" and came and sat beside me. I reached my arm around her and pulled her in close.
I reached my other hand up under her chin and turned her head towards me so that we were looking into each other's eyes. I told her "baby, I will gladly put this beautiful new 'necklace' on you, but only under some conditions." I could sense the nervousness in Haley radiating out of her. I said "first, I want you to understand that I too am giving you my heart. As you wear this, let it be a reminder of how much I care for you. My feelings for you go even beyond love. Two, I love your spontaneity, your humor, your wit. When you reach down and grab my hand, or lean in and give me a kiss, or reach over and straighten my collar. The little jokes you make, sometimes at my expense. I love all of those things about you. And I can't live without them. So you have to promise me that you will not lose that. You are still your own person. Do you promise?" She responded "yes, sir." I continued "third, I realize what an enormous responsibility this entails for me. I promise every morning to wake up with the goal of being the man you deserve. I am not sure I, or anyone, could ever really be all you deserve. But I promise to try. But, I want you to promise that you will help me. If I am not living up to this, goad me to improve. If I am doing something you just can't stand, tell me to change. If I fall short, implore me to do better. This cannot disrupt our communication. I think that is what makes us work out so beautifully. So, promise me you will still be honest with me; about me and about us." She said "yes, sir." I continued "and finally, number four, at least for now, please do not call me 'sir' in front of others. Maybe someday, or maybe just in front of some people, but not now. I love that you trust me enough to do it here, between just the two of us. But I don't want to ever have you put in a situation that could be awkward or demeaning for you. Some people may be judgmental; no, some people will be judgmental. So, do you agree not to call me sir in front of others? At least for now." She looked back at me and said simply "yes." She had left the 'sir' off at the end this time. That is the one thing I loved about her the most. She had a gorgeous body no doubt. But I loved her nimble mind; her quick wit, her personality, her charm; even more. I leaned over and hugged her. I whispered "I love you so much. Thank you for your gift. I promise to protect and cherish it always."
Releasing her from my grasp, I turned her so that her back was to me. I took the key in the box and fit it in the screw that held the collar together. It was a unique screw head that could only be turned by the key. It wasn't some hex or philips head design one could find in my garage; or at a hardware store for that matter. It could only be removed with the key, or with some power tools.
I backed the screw out until the collar opened. I held up Haley's hair and gently fit the collar around her neck. Once it was closed, there would be no simple way that she could remove it herself without the key. As I closed it around her neck I couldn't help but notice the fine hairs on her neck were standing up. I told her before I locked it shut "Haley, my love, this collar does not just represent you giving yourself to me. It also represents me giving myself to you. Wholey and completely." As I screwed it close, locking it onto her, I thought to myself 'I am going to marry this woman. Not right this second, but when the time is right. And we will exchange similar vows to what we just did. Only it will be in a church, in front of all of our friends and family and before the Lord.' Once I had the collar secured I turned her around. I told her "I have never seen anything look so beautiful as that looks on you. Please come with me." She smiled and said "yes, sir."
The next morning I awoke. Before I even opened my eyes my brain asked 'what is on my face, and what the heck is in my mouth? There is something huge there; holding my lower jaw forward and holding my tongue against the roof of my mouth against some uncomfortable foreign invaders that are on my palate'. I involuntarily put my hand up to my forehead to wipe my face and felt the Petit facemask resting on my forehead. I then remembered this was my new normal. I had gotten an orthodontic appliance and facemask the day before. As I opened my eyes the first thing I saw was the metal bar running down the center of my face, just clearing my nose. Oh, yeah, I have to wear this now. Then I thought of Haley and turned my head in her direction. She was curled up beside me on her side. When I turned to see her, I saw her eyes open staring back at me. Oh crap, was I snoring? I asked her the best I could "wah ey norin?" She replied "no, you weren't. I haven't heard you snore since you got your splint. I was just watching you sleep peacefully. It makes me happy." I let out an "awww..." I then told her "shtay."
I got up and went into the bathroom. I removed my facemask, setting it aside. Then I removed the giant splint from my mouth. I rinsed it off and snapped it shut in the case. I then brushed my teeth, being extra diligent to clean around the hooks that extended from my molars to my canines, to get the gross film that accumulated in my mouth every night wearing my appliance. Once I was done rinsing, I popped my day splint in. I then looked over at the facemask. I picked it back up and put it back on, for Haley. Plus, I needed to catch up some. Neither Haley nor I had gotten in our prescribed time the night before.
As I reentered the bedroom I again, probably for the ten thousandth time, thought how beautiful Haley was and how lucky I was. She was laying there in bed with her cheetah print mask on watching me. I had told her to put the cheetah on versus her other ones the night before because she was SO sexy in it. I got back in bed and curled up beside her. As we cuddled we talked about the night before. After about twenty minutes, it was time to get up and get ready for the day. My final statement to her was "last night was so special baby. I will never forget it." She hugged me and said "I won't either."
I was dressed, sitting on a stool drinking coffee in the kitchen. I was going to venture out and see a customer today. I knew I had to eventually face the world with my new appliance; and it's too visible hooks and accompanying lisp. I figured I would just bite the bullet and start today. Haley entered the kitchen dressed in her customary scrubs, but this morning she had a lightweight sweater covering her top. The last few mornings had been unseasonably cool. And Haley was one of those people that was always cold. It also covered up her collar. I wondered if she was a little nervous about showing up to work with it on. I thought she probably was; but I also knew she loved it. I did not mention anything about it as I didn't want her to dwell on it. Plus, I was not taking it off of her. I also couldn't help but notice she was wearing her purple floral facemask. She walked over and rubbed up against me. She said "well, I better hit the road. I have a bunch of patients to go torture today" and giggled. I said "baby, patients should consider themselves lucky to be tortured by you. I know I do." I looked up at her and smiled.
I then asked "are you going to wear your facemask to work?" She said "yes, it isn't anymore uncomfortable than the tandem bow. Actually it is more comfortable. The elastics don't chap my lips as bad as the metal bars. It is just more visible. But I realized yesterday it isn't too big a deal, at least when driving. And plus, Britt has been giving me a hard time about having to wear her headgear at work, while I get away without having to wear my facemask. So yes, I am." I looked at her with love in my eyes and told her "you are so incredible. I love you so much. Let me escort you to your car." Once at her car I stopped her. I hugged her and told her "have a great day at work. And know I will be thinking of you." I leaned in, maneuvered around her facemask, and kissed her on the cheek. As she got in the car I told her "I love you. Be safe." She looked back up at me from the driver's seat and replied "yes, sir", a smile on her face.
As I walked back to the house I realized that Britt was right. Last night was a memory that I would never forget.
Back inside, I grabbed a few documents I would need, and unhooked my laptop and stuck it in my shoulder bag. I took one last look at myself in the mirror. I smiled and thought the hooks in my mouth might be visible from space. But, I knew I couldn't hide inside for the next 6 months. I grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge and headed to the truck. I stowed my bag in the passenger seat. I then got into the driver's seat and I hooked my phone up to the charger. As I did I noticed I had missed a text from Haley. I opened it up and read:
"Sir, I am thinking of you! And here is a little something so you can think of me!"
https://dereferer.me/?https://imgur.io/a/4t3JUVlI was blown away. By her beauty. By the way the morning sun glowed on her skin. And by the facemask she was so bravely and boldly wearing on her face in public. I didn't think it was possible, but I fell even more deeply in love with her at that moment.