Chapter 14
Humorously, the role of Javier's "caretaker" involved very little of myself actually caring for the tortoise. My time was spent being pulled around various rooms rehearsing various ceremonies, two of them towards the very end being the most important: One for if Javier wins the election, and one for if he loses.
Mr. Agust was more than happy to help pay for a proper dress to be worn at the event, with Violet wisely tagging along for a vital second opinion in choosing the dress to be.
We ventured to the far side of the island in Mr. Agust's charming red truck to a relatively new looking dress shop about 10 minutes from the Island's university. The boutique styled store flaunted a modern white tiled interior, utilizing rows of bright string lights just behind the panels of the ceiling. We searched through rows of pristine dresses, most of them intended for weddings and college formals, til reaching a back section of specialty wear. Even though the store's business model and location are meant to cater to the island's immigrating student population, most of the dresses seemed to be designed to fit people much taller than your average college goer. Maybe the dress maker is an island native.
Past the counter I can spot a deep green bateau fit and flare dress worn by a maniquin, tagged with a "reserved" tag for "E. Anderson". It makes sense Esther was first to set her dress aside, being she lives on campus.
Deliberating which style we should search for, Violet interjects that the proper course of action in these situations, is to pick numerous dresses we like, and have myself try them on one by one, eliminating each "no" until only "yes"es remain!
And so, we did exactly that. Business was slow for the store, so there was no guilt in gathering many of the stores available dresses we theorized would fit my small stature, and the staff were kind enough to aid us.
Many of the styles fit well enough, but, unsurprisingly, seeing myself in the mirror with each dress, the girl wearing them while sporting glasses, braces and headgear I couldn't take off, even for the dresses everyone was in agreement was a "yes", I kept saying no.
I'm not sure what's wrong with me. I thought I was used to the braces? All the headgear, the spikes, the springs, even the diaper! I should be used to all of this! Somehow in a dress I just feel really out of place. I want to go to the ball, and I want wear the dress, but something's off.
With yet another dress with everyone in support of accept for myself, Mr. Agust looks to Violet, who returns the look before getting up from her chair and bringing me into the changing room.
"So, what's the matter with this one?"
"Uhmm... I- uhh"
"Is it the diaper?"
!
How does she know about it?
Was it my shorts?
Was it when she hugged me?!?
"W-wh... umm"
I don't need the mirror to know how red my face is right now. She's looking at me. I don't like looking at people's eyes, but she won't let me look away. I can't look away. My legs are twitching. Tears are building up in the corners of my eyes. She brings her hands together to hold my face, her thumbs resting against my facebows, the thin coatings of drool around them sticking to her thumbs. Her expression is steady. I feel like I'm gonna have a heart attack.
"Hey! Hey it's okay! I don't mind! There's nothing wrong about it."
I can't even stammer out words. I can only manage to loudly suck back saliva to keep from getting more of it on her hands.
"You can tell me, okay? Is it the diaper?"
"I... no... ith the brashesh..."
My hands meet hers around my face as I'm forced to suck back once more, my face still red. She shifts her hold from my face to my hands, bringing them down between us.
"What about your braces?"
"They're too mush... and I can't take shem off..."
She angles her head to look at me as I try to turn away from her. Her hair flows to the side, exposing her ear.
"I thought you said you were used them?
"I... there'th gonna be sho many people... and in this dreth? I'll look..."
"Like a little nerd?"
She smirks. She holds my face once more and pulls me to face her. I'm getting lost in the green of her eyes.
"What's wrong with looking like a nerd?"
By now her face is just as red as mine.
"I really like how your braces make you look."
She uses the thumb of her right hand to gently pull at the side of my lower lip, further revealing my braces.
"I also really like your headgear. All three of them, and how cute it makes you look."
She shifts a bit closer.
"And I love how your glasses frame your eyes. I think we both know you're gonna be stuck like this for a really long time. And if you don't go to that ceremony, you'll regret it down the line, so let's make a deal. You let me pick out a dress for you, and I'll go with you to the ceremony. I'll be with you the whole time."
She shifts a bit closer, but hesitates.
"If... only if you want to... with me."
Up until now she looked so sure of herself. Now her eyes are drilling into mine, ravenously searching for a response. Her expression, devolved into one of vulnerability, stays stuck like that. Frozen, holding, silently begging for me to say something, anything.
I shift a bit closer.
I raise my hands to hold hers, meeting them still cradling my blushing face. Eyes driller into hers, matching her expression, I nod.
After a beat, her face lights. She can hardy hold back a smile spreading effortlessly to her ears. Still blushing, she stammers.
"Um, um, okay! Um, I'll-I'll uh. I'll go pick out your dress!"
She fumbles with the doorknob as she awkwardly walks towards the gallery, her entire body seemingly tilting as if trying to keep moving to maintain her balance.
Almost falling, I catch myself on the back of a nearby chair, realizing I'd held my breath for the last part of that exchange.
I'm winded.