Chapter 5
Frank
So far, all I can think about is how Jenny feels relieved when Nate is with us. She likes me, she is my best friend but she prefers when my cousin is with us and I know that sometimes he goes to her apartment and spend the night. A good thing is that they’ve never told me anything they have done together. I don’t think I’d like to know but I’m sure they are closer. I just wish I had never shown that I have feelings for her. College is almost over, just six more months and we’re done. I’m already working at the company. My father wanted me to be Montgomery’s new face and even got into a fight with Dr. Rogers because he wanted to pay him to remove my braces or at least put on modern ones but Dr. Rogers said isn’t the kind of guy that can be bought so he threatened my father, saying he would go to the press telling he was interfering in scientific research, but to tell you the truth, Dr. Rogers make more money asking me to go there every month and sometimes every two weeks adding or removing something that doesn’t change anything than he would make if my father paid him, because everything he does with my mouth is expensive and for scientific matters. F**k science!!
Yeah... About this fight between my father and Dr. Rogers. Like most of the fights, we have winners and losers. My father and uncle decided to make Nate the new face of the company while I am the brain. Dr. Rogers found reasons to improve his research. The loser is me, who now, in addition to the ton of metal around the teeth and the Interlandi, display more metal with j-hooks and another face bow tied to my lower molars pulled by a cervical dark blue strap. I told him I’m older and I know the importance of wearing everything as directed (because of course I didn’t want to display all those wires and straps around my head) and he said he understood and he knows I’m older now, have a life (what life???) but it’s my father the one not to be trusted so yes, everything is tied to my stained dark bands.
If there was anyone who still wasn’t afraid of me, the time has come. The j-hooks were attached to big leather straps, in a high pull configuration with a big pad where the metal hooks attached to that cover great part of my cheeks. As usual, I had two sets, the other wasn’t caramel leather, it was a regular elastic one but it was red, he only had this color, so, no way wearing the red one in front of people. When Jenny saw she felt a little nervous because I noticed her trying to be nicer to me. Not that she wasn’t nice before but now she has offered help more often.
She is always at our house, even when Nate is not home. Now and then she makes dinner for us and she has a great repertoire of soft foods, that’s all I can eat. I cry every night and I’m extremely hopeless. Jenny saw too much, so much that she will never forget how I look like so even when this nightmare is over, I won’t have a chance. The crush I had for her was promoted to love. But one day I will have to get over, no way this wonderful woman will end up with me. I am constantly drooling, I can’t close my mouth because of the number of wires coming out of it, I’m forgetting how it feels to hold the lips together because they simply don’t touch keeping my mouth permanently open. Jenny insists on applying moisturizer to my lips but I don’t feel good with her near my mouth with these ugly bands and lots of headgear, when I speak, I spit like a llama and when I eat I have to open my mouth, put the spoon inside, drop the food, bang the metals trying to chew, and swallow. It isn’t beautiful. When I talk all these wires bump into each other and it makes noises and I don’t want to drag attention to myself so I stopped talking to anyone including Jenny but she continued helping me until last month that’s when she began spending more time with Nate. She’s two years older than me, Nate is one year older than her, hot and with those beautiful teeth. I’m 20 years old and have never kissed anyone, not that I can with all these obnoxious braces and tons of headgear that I wonder how long I’m going to wear and lost the love of my life for my cousin, who is like a brother and the person that I love the most. I knew it would happen. After two horrible months wearing double headgear and j-hooks, I noticed that the lower headgear has never hurt therefore isn’t applying any force, the neck strap is loose.
I never learn that I can’t question about the need of the appliances so when I questioned if the lower headgear was really necessary in our next appointment he removed the bottom face bow and I was happy for two minutes. That’s what it took him to go to another room and come with another face bow with some hooks where the inner and outer bows meet, he asked me to open my mouth again and wired this new weird face bow, then he puts elastics from the hooks of the bands in the incisors to the hooks in the face bow. I felt that these elastics, different from everything else I have in my mouth, all the four green elastics are applying force. No, I can’t take them off to eat. Yes, the cervical strap is still loose but it's better to wear it than only have the metal hung in my mouth.